There is a Time for Everything

There comes a time when i must stop thinking.

Don't get me wrong, i like to conceptualise and try and get a grasp on some knowledge.
I love to really get stuck into theology and really discuss what the bible is trying to say to us. I love to have those debates about whether God is a trinity or about angels and demons
I am always wanting to gain more knowledge. I like my art work to be rooted in something, to mean something, not just art for beauty's sake. I like learning about philosophy and pyschology and art theories. I am enjoying having political conversations with various people, and learning about the beliefs of other religions. I want to be well informed

but it can get too much sometimes... to think to much can suck you dry

When i get stuck in my head for too long, i forget myself. If i allow my brain to analyse too much, wether it be God, or philosphy or art, or anything related, i feel like something in me is being repressed.
I really notice it. My spirit isnt being allowed any freedom. i guess many people dont think about it, and aren't that aware of it.
We often talk about us being made of mind, body and spirit, to me they should be equal. To work out each part of ourselves takes a lot of work and it takes discipline, but i guess some things come easier to some than others. Like there are natural born intellectuals and natural born athletes or those who seem to be 'spiritually' gifted. But still these things require work and discipline.

But we are MIND, BODY and SPIRIT. its a shame because what is most pushed in school is the mind, we must learn learn learn.
And we also must exercise our body, if we dont exercise our body we become unhealthy, we must look after our body, be careful what we consume and the way we treat ourselves. in the same way we must exercise our mind in order for us to stay 'sharp' or on the mark. a dull mind is such a terrible waste.
But what about the spirit? it is too often neglected. What happens if we do not exercise our spirit? there are not many societal lessons on how to exercise the spirit, only the mind, go to school, get educated, form opinions... and the body, push play for 30 minutes a day, 5+ fruit and vege a day...

well anyway i really notice when i spend too much time thinking and analysing. and i get really frustrated, God is something you cannot analyse...
As much as i can try to figure Him out, there is no way i could possibly. The majority of us humans think in a way that is only logical. GOD IS NOT LOGICAL. There is no way our tiny brains could ever understand the complexities of God.
Love is one of these things, these complex things that we try and try to understand, there are so many songs written about love. I dont think anyone can truly know what love is... ah i could quote so many songs here 'i just wanna know what love is' but that is the only one i will. God is LOVE.

So it can't be understood, it can never be fully comprehended. When you take away the human structures of christianity and just have God to analyse and just have the fundamentals of what and who God is, what he's done and what he's said, then the only way to really find any answers is to stop. Stop intellectulising. He said, "you will seek and find me, when you seek me with your whole heart" The HEART is part of our inner person, what i like to call the spirit.

Many people can get by on the strength of their mind and their body, and wouldn't even know what their spirit was.

The spirit doesnt need to be 'super spiritualised' or some kind of supernatural phenomenon, my spirit is nourished by some of the most simple things, like waking up to the sun streaming in your bedroom window or the smell of daffodils on a bright spring day or good theatre or films, my spirit is awakened by good music, there can be something that 'stirs' in me.
I think art and music are two of the most powerful things to hold spiritual energy, and it can be good energy or bad energy.
I want to be able to create something that can speak to people on more than an intellectual level, there are many theories about the spiritual in art, and it is good to know these, but there comes a point when i must forget everything i have learned. Put it on the shelf for coming back to another time. and i must create from the thing that is from within me.

Perhaps things that are created only from the intellectual, are things that are cold.
art that holds something of the person that created it, contains more life, there is spirit in it.

I think this blog really jumps around a bit in my thoughts, just shows how tired my brain is getting. I really need to revive my spirit again, feed it a little bit. take in some really good music or something.

I wish there was a time to do everything all at once, there are so many things i wanna do and not enough time to do them. If i could spend a couple of hours a day writing, a few hours researching, an hour to read the Holy Book, a few hours drawing, an hour singing, an hour playing guitar, five or six hours art making, a few hours hanging out with friends, an hour exercising, a couple of hours to eat, a couple of hours relaxing and doing absolutely nothing, there would be no time for sleeping....